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orbitaldiamonds) wrote2009-12-30 09:09 pm
orbitaldiamonds) wrote2009-12-30 09:09 pm
My "real" personal post.
Hm...not really sure what to say here.
Firsts of 2009:
1. The end of Chris's first deployment.
2. First time my polyamory manifested itself.
Um...
Yeah. Not as many this year as last year.
The last couple of months have been okay. Kind of blah. Spending time with Chris. Spending time in front of the computer. Playing DDR and getting better at it. DDR is the only video game I can beat Chris at, though if Chris practiced, he'd beat me at that too. :P
I've made a rather worrying discovery about myself, and it's that I don't mind being a housewife. What worries me is that I don't know how much of that is laziness. On the other hand, I want to work, but with a 6:1 applicant-to-job ratio, as long as Chris and I can get by on what he makes, I suppose we should, because I wouldn't want to take a job from someone who needs it to feed his/her children.
Fucking guilt. I feel guilty for not working, but I'd feel guilty for working. Damned if I do, damned if I don't.
On the upside, I honestly don't mind doing most of the indoor housework, as long as Chris does the outdoor stuff. And there's a lot more indoor stuff to do (and it's a lot more time-consuming) than outdoor stuff, so I don't feel like I'm assigning him too many domestic chores on top of a rather demanding job.
I'm glad that Chris and Fizzy like each other. I'm sure they consider each other friends. Chris and I have invited Fizzy to join our relationship, and she's thinking about it. But even if she says no, she's still our friend, and that is truly a gift from the Flying Spaghetti Monster.
All in all, things are going pretty well. I still have to deal with my medical and mental health issues, so at least when I'm in an emotional place of suck, the logical part of me can start ticking off my blessings.
My husband. Fizzy. My family. My friends. The relative mildness of my physical and mental issues. Chris's job security in this recession (go army, hooah :P). An amount of debt we can pay off by the time we're 30 if we live within our means. Going to Australia in March for the Global Atheist Convention and to hang out with Fizzy in person.
Okay, I'm going to copy that last paragraph elsewhere for boost-age.
Firsts of 2009:
1. The end of Chris's first deployment.
2. First time my polyamory manifested itself.
Um...
Yeah. Not as many this year as last year.
The last couple of months have been okay. Kind of blah. Spending time with Chris. Spending time in front of the computer. Playing DDR and getting better at it. DDR is the only video game I can beat Chris at, though if Chris practiced, he'd beat me at that too. :P
I've made a rather worrying discovery about myself, and it's that I don't mind being a housewife. What worries me is that I don't know how much of that is laziness. On the other hand, I want to work, but with a 6:1 applicant-to-job ratio, as long as Chris and I can get by on what he makes, I suppose we should, because I wouldn't want to take a job from someone who needs it to feed his/her children.
Fucking guilt. I feel guilty for not working, but I'd feel guilty for working. Damned if I do, damned if I don't.
On the upside, I honestly don't mind doing most of the indoor housework, as long as Chris does the outdoor stuff. And there's a lot more indoor stuff to do (and it's a lot more time-consuming) than outdoor stuff, so I don't feel like I'm assigning him too many domestic chores on top of a rather demanding job.
I'm glad that Chris and Fizzy like each other. I'm sure they consider each other friends. Chris and I have invited Fizzy to join our relationship, and she's thinking about it. But even if she says no, she's still our friend, and that is truly a gift from the Flying Spaghetti Monster.
All in all, things are going pretty well. I still have to deal with my medical and mental health issues, so at least when I'm in an emotional place of suck, the logical part of me can start ticking off my blessings.
My husband. Fizzy. My family. My friends. The relative mildness of my physical and mental issues. Chris's job security in this recession (go army, hooah :P). An amount of debt we can pay off by the time we're 30 if we live within our means. Going to Australia in March for the Global Atheist Convention and to hang out with Fizzy in person.
Okay, I'm going to copy that last paragraph elsewhere for boost-age.